It was as if the day instantly turned night
All was good and doubtless and then suddenly
All was bad and hopeless

It took a matter of a second to acknowledge
The one dim light in the sea of dark
Presumably the last hope in a fit of confusion

I am aware of what I like
And what I don't like
And how maybe this could be a wrong path

And I am scared but
I am trying
Yet somehow it is probably not enough

So I flake as recent times show
And realize how it is not so me
But react in no new way

I resort to the sulking
Or the sadness
Or that I don't even need this
When in reality I will never know